[Feeling] [Stressed]

Man I love these Samoa girl scout cookies sooooooo much. You may love and know them as Caramel Delights. But where I come from, they're called Samoas. Man, I could totally eat the whole damn box, they're THAT good. But they're chock full of fat and eating the whole box may just give me a heart attack. But i like to eat when i'm stressed and oh, am i stressed.

I am very far behind in my reading for a couple of my classes. I have 3 tests next week, and I'm supposed to go home for Saturday, because this may the last Saturday in quite a while that I'll have the chance to go home because of training for the Stick tournament. I hope my parents don't mind just seeing me with my nose in a book, because i can't afford to take Saturday off.

Right now, I'm about to practice for a presentation that I have tomorrow, so I better quit procrastinating and run through it a few more times. Crazy presentations. :/ Anyway, take care everyone, and remember: no matter how stressed you are, don't eat the whole box of Samoas.

[Feeling] [Numb]

This is a day in history my friends. I am officially swearing off boys/guys/men until I graduate and find a job. I'm tired of always wondering whether someone could like me or not, or whether I could have a chance in HELL with them. Because I know the stakes are unlikely and it's making my heart cold. The only way to save my heart is to promise myself no crushes, no dating, no love until I get my life in order. And that's that. I have to many things to worry about. It's been quite a ride as my first year (+) being single. I'm just pretty damn tired of it now. It's not fun anymore and I'm hurting other people in the process of my delinquency.

You'll see the old Alexis again someday, but today, I introduce you to the older, more levelheaded girl that you will come to know and love as a person of dignity and assurance. Thank you.

[Feeling] [Depressed]

Bam, like THAT, from 1 song.

Blink 182-I Miss You

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

(I miss you I miss you)
(I miss you I miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)

[feeling] [numb] and [pleased]

I'm very pleased that my party turned out so great. I got pretty damn shitfaced and the thing that I feel numb about will probably never be brought up again but it's going to be weird for a few weeks. I haven't seen him yet, but I'll explain the situation more when I know more about it. All in all though it was a very good party and I'm glad I had it. Thanks to all who were able to make it out.

On another note I chopped off all of my lovely hair this sunday. I've been wanting to cut it for some time now and since I was so mad at myself on Sunday I decided that THAT was the day to do it. I plan on it being much more manageable for the training before the stick tournament I'll be fighting in. Here's my hair if you would like to take a gander.