I'm not having a good semester.
The stats class I thought I was doing so well in. Yeah. I made a 51 on my first test. I had been working so hard. I figured it would all be downhill if I tried to keep going with the class so I dropped it on the very last day that I could drop it. i.e. no refund.
I got my first spanish test back today and i made a 75 because of one section. Oh yes I knew every answer to it once she explained the directions today when we were going over it. I could have had an A if I knew how to read directions in Spanish.
I got my hair cut and it doesn't look right. It won't ever.
There are many other factors contributing to my sucky semester. I'm very lonely. I don't know what the deal is, I mean I see people every day, talk to them. I guess I just lack a companionship that I've always had, always needed. Not just cause Philipis away, but I want someone else I can talk to, complain to, and have them understand me. I guess it's asking a lot. I just wish I wasn't so shy, so then I could just walk up to people and be like, hey wanna hang out. I just have the feeling every has a negative impression of me.
Oh and I don't think my random advertising partner really wants to work with me afterall. I had another girl wanting to work with me but this other girl responded first, so I feel obligated. Argh. Why are morals so important? Why is college so damn important? Wouldn't I be happy living back home, working in a plant as a receptionist, living with my mom and dad? Ok so i see the independence aspect is important but why does it have to start being so hard? I haven't had this hard of a time with classes so far...EVER!!!
What is my damn deal this semester? Is it the new job taking up my time? I doubt it because I wouldn't be doing much during that time anyway. Is it the lack of sleep I've been having? Who knows....
This semester is sucking, and it better get a lot easier on me or I'm gonna go more nuts than I already am. aolstice!